August Blog
Apathy creeps up on you.
It erodes joy & dissolves your faith in the human spirit. When you’ve been hurt one time too many, you risk closing your heart. When you close your heart, you smother hope. As your self-esteem goes into free-fall you go into survival mode. If you’re lucky enough to have one good friend or family member you can begin to recover, if those that have bloodied the knife with your blood are those friends & family; you will be forever changed. I’ve met people with such bitter angry views, if you knew their story you would see why…..
Why do we allow ourselves to live in such torment. As if we somehow could’ve prevented this breach of trust.
I look into the eyes of a wounded soul & I’m asked “why me? What did I do to deserve this? I was on their side…..I thought they loved me?”
Firstly, don’t take it personally -it’s not about you! I hear you say- Fiona it felt bloody personal! You are a mirror to the perpetrator. They saw something in you they lacked & craved for themselves. Having neither the courage or the character within- they sought to stamp it out in you. With each betrayal comes a lesson. Life is all about those darn lessons!
To often our hearts get battered by life’s storms so we go within. To dwell too long in any place can lead to you feeling stagnant & disconnecting ultimately from your true self.
Honest questions are called for. How many red flags did you CHOOSE to ignore, how many times did you say nothing “to keep the peace”, or saw undesirable behaviour but ignored it or put it down to stress or having a bad day. Your inner compass is never wrong. It’s very rare you will meet truly nasty people, when you do, it’s vital you pick up the pieces & move on with your life. Staying in that place you risk becoming a victim. I’ve met women paralysed by their own apathy. There are no good men left. Only guys out there are two timing creeps etc. I remind them only a few hour previous I’d a male client saying the exact same statement except the other way round! Your words carry energy. Energy carries intention. Intention shapes reality. So you become the victim of circumstances you have unwittingly created yourself. It’s time you stop letting fear dictate the course of your life. We are not here for a very long time. Do you want to spend your remaining time here closed off from love or keeping the peace for fear of being called selfish. Without love we are lost.
It’s time you stopped being angry with yourself. You must heal your heart. Take responsibility for your life’s direction. You are the Captain of your own ship. This vessel that carries you through life needs nourishment, maintenance but most of all love. If the sneer of cynicism has became a permanent fixture on your face- only you can change it. Lost all your friends-make new ones. Find a support group -take a class – change your job! Only you can find your path to joy. For when you claim your birthright to joy- hope unfurls inside you again. Never give up. For others to believe in you- you must believe in yourself first…..
(C) Fiona Faery
