There is something magical about Christmas lights. Every year my neighbour puts on a Christmas lights display that can be seen from space! (I haven’t checked with NASA but I’m sure it’s on their radar!)
I eagerly await the switching on of her lights every year. The sheer joy that fills me every time I turn the corner on to my street in December.
I have so much gratitude in my heart for these lights and they bring so much joy to everyone on my street. That’s the feeling I’m noticing this moment is gratitude.
Gratitude for the year that was.
For the people who left my life , thank you for your lessons and for those that stayed thank you for your love and support.
This year was incredibly tough.
I lost my beautifully nanny rose and this will be my first Christmas without her. I accidentally wrote her name down without thinking on my Christmas present list, as she was always at the top.
That set me off.
The signs are everywhere. I know she’s at peace. I was on stage the other night and I was connecting with sisters who had all stepped through in spirit. I could hear the song ‘Sisters, sisters’
Immediately I got a strong image of my nanny and her sister Joan as younger woman singing that song!
Even though the message was for an audience member my loved ones were helping bring it through.
I was taken aback.
I could see my nanny as a middle aged lady when she was brunette and she looked so young & happy, my auntie Joan as mischievous as ever! I had to compose myself quickly to relay the message.
Here’s the thing. Joan’s daughter was in the audience that night.
Even though I was bringing in other people as soon as I referenced the song , which was their song- my cousin Aisling immediately knew her mum and her auntie Rose were there!
After I had done the meet & greet , Aisling came up to me and the tears flowed! I told Aisling what I had seen and she shared with me that she knew they were there the minute I referenced the song.
Christmas can be such a tough time when you are missing a loved one in spirit. In truth it doesn’t matter if it’s your first or your 20th year without a person, that’s the price we pay for loving them.
A Robin has started to visit me.
I keep breaking down each time I see it , and the other day it flew right down on a lower branch I had to chase it away as I have very skilled agile cats! Can you imagine the level of trauma if they murdered a robin on me!!!!
My readings and clients have been the biggest blessing this year and you dear reader! Thank you for being part of the faery tribe. I have found such comfort & solace within our community. My readings have given me perspective and humility.
On my bad days with grief, to hold the space for someone who has lost everyone in their life has been nothing short of an honour and incredibly sacred to experience.
Memories of happier times can cast a shadow on merriment and festivities. The empty chair can carve a hole in the heart of the family sitting around that table.
Don’t let the sadness suffocate your joy. If putting up the tree brings you happiness- put the damn tree up! Ignore Jacinta in no. 27 that says you can’t put decorations up after a death! You do you boo!
If you are floored and simply don’t have the energy , put a Christmas alter on your kitchen window , some battery operated tea lights on your mantelpiece. It doesn’t have to be much , just enough to make you smile.
There is still life and love and things to be enjoyed.
Christmas lights excite my inner child. They help me to believe that magic is real and if I look really hard into the skies on Christmas Eve that’s either a shooting star or a sleigh being pulled by some very busy reindeer.
Nollag Shóna Daoibh go léir
Merry Christmas
Love
Fiona
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